A Complete 180

The last time I blogged I was heading to basic and everything was finally working itself out. All that has changed now. I am pregnant and I am not upset about that. I am actually handling it pretty well. My new problems are the fact that my family has finally drawn a permanent line between each other so I have to figure out who side to be on, the baby's daddy has completely disappeared (though I am not mad about that), no one seems to see how hard I am working to straighten out my life so I get little interventions every couple of days, people are demanding more from me, and all I want to do is go to a dark room and cry until the rest of the world has completely forgotten about me. Everyone is claiming to be trying to help me , but they are just making everything thing worse. Everything seemed to be better when I  was handling it by myself.

Positive Point: I have not killed myself yet.

Great news!!

     Hello everyone. I have wonderful news. A fellow I consider my brother has joined the military and will be leaving off to Basic Training soon. Isn't that great? I am so proud of him. I also started working part time at a cell phone company and I have made it a point to get in touch with everyone who helped me along the way who I forgot about. All in all, I am dong pretty good. All I have left to do is work on getting my younger brother and sister into a better home and my life will be settled. You see my younger siblings stay with my aunt and as of mow she threatens to call the police on me and my other siblings every time we try to go near them and my sister has been calling me crying on the phone because my aunt's current boyfriend hits them. I am not talking about a spanking, but he punches and kicks them around like trash. Hopeful our plan will work and they will be able to stay with my grandma until we can arrange something more permanent. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers.

     Now for something more interesting. Did you guys hear about the sixteen yr. old who got away with murder? Apparently it is called affluenza. The teen and a couple of his friends stole beer from a liquor store and was driving with a blood alcohol level three times the legal limit. He killed four people. According to his lawyer, because he was brought up with a wealthy back ground he does not know right from wrong and he should be sent to rehab and not jail. SERIOUSLY??!! The judge bought it so now he is basically walking away with a slap on his hand. It is so sad that our society works so hard to protect the wealthy that they will allow something like this tragidey to happen. My heart and my prayers goes out to the families and the victims. Hollie Boyles, Shelby Boyles,  Breanna Mitchell, and youth pastor Brian Jennings, I am so sorry your death will not see justice and you had to meet an untimely death. To Eric Boyles, I am so sorry for your lost.

Positive note: Family will always be there to support and love you, so cherish them while you can.

A little update

Hello everyone and thank you for reading my previous blog. a lot has happened since the last time I posted. I have gotten used to seeing my ex around my house, managed to save money, and gotten my hair done. This week I am getting ready for drill and shopping for things I really don't need. I have returned to book I started, but never finished. Hopefully it's done before I live. I have not decided what I am going to do with it yet, so if you have any ideas let me know. I don't have  much to say today because all in all the week has just started and so far the only change have been the lack of sleep I have been getting because of my sister and cousins need to talk at two o' clock in the morning. (I will not miss that when I leave.) I am going to try something drastic in a few weeks. I am going to try...(drum roll please) a full body wax. Now those who know me knows I hate pain so that will make an interesting post. I am going to leave you guys with my positive notes.

Positive note: The world was able to receive the joy of knowing what  such an amazing man Nelson Mandela was and he will forever be remembered for everything he has done for his country. Also a cute guy gave me his number yesterday. Yeah for the world and me! :~P  

let's start at the beginning

                    Hello and thanks to everyone who bothered to read this. My name is Victoria Smith-Tyson and no I am not married. My last name comes from my father's and my mother's last name. I was born in  Limón, Costa Rica. You will not hear about how exotic my life is because my family moved from there when I was two and did not keep in contact with my relatives that lives there. I have lived in America since then, mostly in Georgia. I am writing this blog to get out the emotions I otherwise hold in. I am nineteen years old and so far I have completed one year of college and joined the national guard. I will spend the next year and a month in training and once I return I will go back to school. So you see I do have a plan for my life. After completing my undergraduate years, I am going to move on to medical school and one day I will be a doctor. I am not a wayward teen with no life. I just never get to express my emotions and now I am going to change that.
           For example, last week on Thanksgiving day my boyfriend decided he was going to break up with me because I decided to go to the movies with my cousin instead of spending all night with him. Mind you, we were together all morning, afternoon, and the night before. Apparently he needs a lot of attention. Not wanting to spoil the holiday, I held in all the pain and anger until the night after when he decided he was going to come over and play the victim. (Did I mention his family and my family are friends, so I still have to see him when he decides he wants to visit?) So I might have snapped on him and told him where he could go. Suffice it to say that did not end well for me. Now my sisters are trying to get us back together. (here comes the part when I decided to start a blog.) Today I asked his brother if I could use his phone and when I went to massages I noticed that they have been texting each other. Now I feel like an idiot because he was talking shit about me and asking his brother about my mood so he could come over to fuck. Horrible, right?
             The worse thing about it is I really just wasn't to talk to my mom about all of this, but she died when I was fourteen. So now I am all alone. Everyone tells me I should show more emotions, but if I showed how I felt all the time I would always be depressed. So I started this blog. I promise this will be my last sad post. From now on I will focus on myself and try harder to put more positive out into the world. Every post will have a positive note. I am going to change my life around before it gets to late. I hope you guys enjoy reading this and following my journey through life. Happy holidays.

Positive note: I am moving in with some friends this month and I have extra money for Christmas this year. Yeah for me :-)